Karen –
Thank you for the tips on supplements (for my situation). I am going to get a better handle on taking my vitamins regularly, as I have been slightly lax about this lately. Don’t beat yourself up. That is left for the dark side, right? And the dark is fighting, yet slowly moving out of your genealogy, as it did even in my karmic adopted family! My bad. If you see elevated issues with unresolved anger, I can understand that right now. I am still working through old issues with my father’s death. As you will for months to come! An opportunity to resolve emotional issues inside YOU! We also had Don’s sister come out to visit, and the visit ended in her getting very upset and leaving suddenly. I think she may have left behind some really “funky” energy (or perhaps a poltergeist), as I had to do a smudging this weekend before I could get to sleep. I could feel someone or something in the corner of my bedroom staring at me – ARE YOU HERE FOR MY HIGHEST GOOD? IF NOT, BE GONE. ANGRY eyes on me when I closed my eyes for sleep. I am pretty sure it is residue from Stephanie’s visit and her angry outburst towards me. I am fairly sure her anger comes from being resentful towards me that her brother moved 2,000 miles away from her and family – and she has yet to admit this anger to herself. (Or perhaps she recognized this and she is arguing with me consciously– I’m not quite sure.) She has a lot of issues, so I am trying to be compassionate and understanding of why she is upset while letting her know that her behavior is unacceptable. ( Karen: CHECK YOUR BEHAVIOR! You aren’t in control! Nature rules! You paint Nature! )
I was really getting a bit concerned about my brother, and making sure he is safe from that dark influence – especially since he will be driving tractor trailers for a living now. I do not want him in imminent danger while he is on the road. Plus, I do not want other brothers to continue being mad at him for his ornery and somewhat abusive behavior towards his girlfriend, Dawn. Dawn claims he has been a bit easier to get along with, but I am not sure how much I can count on her judgment either, as she is a victim of abuse all her life as well. (Our family seems to have a habit of collecting the “strays” in life!) I can tell by talking with my brother on the phone that he seems a bit more calm and less anxious and a bit less negative while I spoke to him right before Christmas. I guess I just needed to hear your confirmation that he is still cooperating with your efforts. Sometimes, the codependent “care-taker” is in question. Watch out for your “over-do-diligence” and channel your emotions, once clearly acknowledged, cleared and out, so as not to pollute our energetic lives. Thank you!
